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new blog.
i never thought that everything in my life could simaltaneously be so temporary and so permanent
small decisions i made
everyday sentences forming my future without my permission
every is my least favourite word now
i think i hate wholes now
things are always better in fractions
just enough to make you crack a smile
never enough to make you comfortable
how cliche that i want to “be alone let the world swallow me whole swallow ten xanax”
how cliche “that i cant differentiate what is my valid reaction and feelings and what is my ocd and depression clouding my brain from a normal response”
i sing songs in my head the line repeats and repeats and i feel even worse for doing that
i feel worse for doing anything
ill feel worse if i post this
but I’m feeling self destructive enough to pull a pin
but not enough to take mersyndol when I’ve already been drinking
ill save that for when the shock wears off
i didn’t get dumped
my hearts not broken
my best friend didn’t stab me in the back
im not bored
this didn’t start tonight
theres everything i need to do to justify anyone on my sub par blog I’m allowed to type 19 sentences about my lack of control and hate for wholes
Bye
Everybody Wants to Rule the World - Tears for Fears (Songs from the Big Chair, 1985)
I’m suffocating
I’m (so) fucking tired
kindofcute-kindof